Once upon a time I could do 8 pullups . . .
Once upon a time I could run without my knees and back aching . . .
Once upon a time I could lift weights 4-5 days a week
And then this happened:
Which is totally AWESOME and I am so excited to meet this little girl! On Valentine’s day we revealed her gender to our family & friends! I really wanted a boy, and Sam wanted a girl . . . he got his wish! But, really, we are SO happy.
I am currently 6 months along and can’t believe there are only about 3 left to go! Time has flown and I feel like I still have a lot to do before she comes.
There have been some trade-offs. First, I’ll start off by saying that I’ve had a really easy and nice pregnancy so far. I haven’t been very sick at all and don’t have a lot of the side affects that normally come with pregnancy. I guess I got lucky in that respect! Besides the normal fatigue and ache from all the changes my body is going through (and having trouble getting out of bed – seriously, I have to roll over like a beached whale. It’s a process.) I’m still healthy and happy!
My trade-off comes in the form of a medical issue that has prevented me from doing something that I love – working out. And, this is the reason my writing has come to a halt (besides moving across the country during the holidays and getting settled into a new place). Below is a pic of the last time I was able to go to the gym back in February, I think. Super bummed, because my new gym here in California is AWESOME! Over a month ago, after we found out we are having a girl, my DR told me I had placenta previa, and to basically stop doing anything that is high impact or could cause too much stress on my body. Squats – out of the question, Deadlifts – no way, Any Lower Body Lift or Ab Work – don’t even. Running is not an option, and neither is anything that would cause too much stress on my joints (they’ve been getting soft!). Carrying heavy stuff, being too active, are all no-no’s. So basically I’m left with light upper body workouts (have to be careful about indirectly working my core), the elliptical (which I hate), and walking. Sam and I discussed my situation and decided it would probably be best to lay off going to the gym altogether since I would honestly have a huge struggle of not doing the things I wasn’t supposed to do. Seriously, I love weight-lifting, and it would be too tempting to try and justify something. But, I need to take care of this baby girl growing inside of me and do what is best for her.
On a good note, there is a very high chance, something like 80-90% that my previa will move as the baby grows and I won’t have any issues with delivery. (Side note: Placenta previa is when the placenta is too close, or partially or fully covers the cervix. It can cause some major issues during the third trimester, and during birth if it doesn’t’ move. I have a marginal, which is the least serious, and most likely to move.) BUT, until we find out if the previa has moved or not, I’m stuck playing it safe for now and trying to keep myself busy with nursery sewing projects!
So . . . my pregnancy has been difficult for me in the sense that I’ve had this mental battle going on and a real struggle with having to put my fitness goals on hold. I don’t fit into my pre-pregnancy clothes anymore (apparently that is a side-affect of pregnancy :) ), and I’m watching my body slowly get soft, and bigger, and less like I want it to be. Eating healthy has also been a real struggle. I’m an all-or-nothing kind of girl, and since working out was kicked-to-the-curb, so was my motivation for eating right. Though it has been a struggle, the only thing keeping me from going off the deep end and eating pizza and ice-cream every night is that I need to make healthy food choices for baby girl. (Ok, so maybe I do have ice-cream almost every night, but not pizza!)
It is so hard for me to look back at pictures of me when I was working out so much, and so lean, and was starting to get some nice muscle definition.
Because now I look like this:
I know it is normal, and it is part of pregnancy, but I was going to be that super fit prego lady at the gym and still do dead-lifts and squats and anything else I felt like doing (besides the obvious no-no’s when you are pregnant.) I’m a little jealous when I see pregnant ladies still able to stay a lot more active than myself. I know I shouldn’t be, and that every situation is different, but that is how I feel. I try to get a walk in a few times a week, and move around a lot during the day. I got a part-time job coaching elementary kids basketball and tennis after school a few times a week. I have enjoyed working with those kids so much, but even that is proving to be too difficult at this stage in my pregnancy and today is my last day coaching for FitkidsAmerica until further notice.
I still try to read up on fitness stuff, avidly peruse my fitness Instagram account to try and stay motivated (though sometimes it makes me sad), and was able to attend a 360 You Workshop hosted by JazzyThings, Jenny Groethe, and Lindsey Matthews (my trainer from Moxie). I couldn’t do the workout portion of the weekend workshop in Salt Lake, but I was able to participate in everything else, go for a walk in one of my favorite cities, and came away with a new determination to focus on what I CAN do, instead of what I can’t. (I was SO excited to meet Jazzy! Even thought she lives less than an hour north of me, I decided to go to her workshop in SLC, so I could also see my family and friends!).
On a positive note: one interesting thing I’ve noticed since being pregnant is how much MORE appreciative I am now of the shape my body was in pre-preg. Not going to lie, even though I was working out 4-5 days a week and eating really healthy, I still would look in the mirror and see so many flaws, and so many areas that needed improvement. Back then I wasn’t fit enough for where I wanted to be and didn’t appreciate all the hard work and how far I had gone to get there. Looking back at those pictures now, when I can see and feel how much my body has changed, I am so happy with where I was at. I’m like, dang girl, you were looking good! So, I have this new-found appreciation to not take that progress for granted. And after baby is born, when I get back to my pre-preg shape, then I KNOW I will appreciate myself so much more. So, what it comes down to is this. Fmfitgirl is back in the game! My goal is to try and capture my current fitness journey, as altered as it may be, and document what I am able to do until this baby girl comes! And then when she does come, you can watch my transformation and follow me as I drop those post-prego pounds and get back into shape and back to where I want to be!
In the meantime, I’ve been given an awesome opportunity to be an online Coach with Moxie Full Body Fitness! Though I haven’t advertised it much, some of you know I am a certified personal trainer! I have been working as a client with Moxie for almost 2 years now and have LOVED the progress I have been able to make and want to help others make healthy and attainable lifestyle changes. Moxie was able to customize my plan to fit my needs, goals, and preferences. I wasn’t forced to do anything I didn’t want to do, though I had so many opportunities to try new things! Go check out my bio and if you are interested in coaching, feel free to reach out to me with questions, or sign up and request me as your coach!